Well, it happened. I must admit it took longer this time to happen BUT it did!! Today was not a good day for me. I had a breakdown BIG TIME. I am overwhelmed with everything I have on my plate right now and I just broke. You can only stretch a rubber-band so far before it snaps! I had a huge fight with a terriffic friend and ended up screaming and storming out. I did go back and we both cried and hugged and we're ok now but the pressure of all I have to do go the better of me and I REALLY over stepped my bounds today. I HATE feeling that way!!! HATE IT. Being a Mom trying to compete for reasons more than just competing, I want this to be my career, my life, my thing. I have a husband 4 kids, 3 dogs, a house, cars a friend living with me in my basement, my prep which consists of double cardio and lifting (and I only get 2 hrs in the child center for my kids so I have to split it up), my son as Asperger's and we struggle daily, he's in Tae Kwon Do 3 times a week, my daughter is in gymnastics, my oldest daughter is going thru emotional issues and is seeing a therapist, my father in law passed away in Dec. and now my husband has no parents (his Mom passed in 2006), we have to empty his home that he lived in for 38 years and it's tough emotionally on my husband, my Aunt had breast cancer and had a mastectomy (she got her 5yr all clear thank God) but lost her job and now broke her ankle and has 8 pins in it, my mom is obese and so is my father, my mom has raging type 2 diabetes and had a lap band procedure but can't keep anything down and therefore isn't losing any weight.
Someone please...... help....... I am losing my mind!!!!!!!! 4 weeks and I have to be on stage..
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